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Sunday, November 12, 2006

hey there ppl

dis would be my first post for todae..

wait for more to come aite..

k..err..i actually dunno wat to write at de moment
gt to many tings stuck up in my head..cant realli tink..
haiz..

hmm..i tink dat i'll try to write bout tings which hav recently happened..
actually a lot of tings did happen.

nw im in a state of making a veri important decision..
ever wonder..if u end up in poly..taking up a course
which u tot dat u liked n hav interest in..
well..architecture was so called my dream course n also my ambition last time.
since taking up de course..i realised dat i cant cope wit it..
i cant handle all de project works..i'd rather be doin exams..

since it was dat wae..i didnt quite like de course..
started skipping classes, not being serious bout it..
till then a letter came..i wasnt at hm dat dae..
but my parents were..so they opened up de letter as it was frm my skool..
soon i recieved a phone call frm my dad..asking where am i n all den told me to go hm asap after doin watever dat i was doin..
upon reaching hm.
my mum told me dat she read de letter stating dat i wasnt serious bout skool..having poor attendance..
i was quite shocked at de moment as i didnt expect a letter to come..
but my mum was realli veri upset..

err..i guess dat i was in de wrng..
i feel so guilty..so wrng..
i had to tink back on wat i hav done..
de nxt mornin..sat for breakfast together wit my parents..
talk bout dis issue..so called having a heart to heart talk..
well..i can tell dat my mum was realli3 veri2 upset bout it..
i jus couldnt take it..
i told my mum dat i didnt like de course..i couldnt handle it..
i then told her dat i wanted to change course..
surprisingly she said okie..saeing dat it is okie to do wat u like..
for a 2nd option i opted to change to a diff course which is, DMAT..
dip. in music n audio technology..
but behind all dat saeing yes n all to my decision..
i still knw dat my mum was upset..

de nxt dae..my father talked to me..
telling me to tink properly b4 i make my decision..
he den said dat..my mum was having high hopes for me becoming an architect since i took up an architecture course..
i was den awstruck..i didnt knw dat my mum had so much hope for me..
n yet i let her down..
i just felt so wrng n guilty..
y did i hav to do dis kind of tings..
to tink back..i jus didnt treasure alot of wat i hav..
didnt tink of other ppl whom i may affect..
but nw..i tink i alrady knw..
i'll try my best to make my parents happi..
and i realli hav to tink again bout changin course..

haiz...k..i tink dat would be enuf for dat topic..

nxt i tink i'll jump to last wks hari raya celebrations wit de bnd members..
well..not all arh..
jus a few here n there..n plenty of which gt to knw onli last min..

n im one of them..

actualli didnt plan to go coz of my jamming schedule..

but den..jus went wit dem for de sake of fun?? duno larh..

its coz my jamming was later in de evening at 5pm..

after go to dis house here n there.met up wit shawal at cwp to go jamming together..

after jamming n all dis..finished at ard 7+..

in the end still gt time to join de other bnd members who were still having thier jln raye..

sempat seh...well..i knw dat sum1 on dat dae wasnt happi..dont want to mention any names larh..

haiz..

okok..i tink dis is enuf for dis post..

will get another post up n done wit..n end my story for last wk..

finale.
12:03:00 am